Music has become an indispensable companion in navigating the tumultuous waters of personal growth and loss. For many students, college is a time of immense change and self-discovery. In my case, it was the unexpected decision to learn the piano during the early days of the pandemic that set me on this transformative path. Initially, progress was slow and often frustrating. There were moments when I questioned my decision. Yet, over five years, songwriting evolved into something much more profound. It became a means of processing grief, exploring artistic expression, and creating a body of work that reflects my innermost thoughts and feelings.

Songwriting provided solace during some of the darkest moments of my life. The first piece I composed was born out of deep sorrow following the passing of my grandmother in December 2020. Through music, I found a way to honor her memory and articulate the emotions that words alone could not convey. When I sang my own lyrics, it felt as though her voice resonated through me once again. This cathartic experience was repeated with subsequent losses, including two more grandparents last semester. Each loss brought waves of grief, but music remained a constant, grounding force. One morning, driven by an urgent need for a piano, I ventured to the Schwartz Center for Performing Arts. There, in a quiet basement room, I spent hours writing songs that helped me feel more present and grounded than I had in weeks. Even when physical challenges arose, such as a ligament tear, I continued to carve out time for music, finding refuge in those familiar keys.

Music has been more than just a creative outlet; it has been a lifeline. As a college student, adapting to new environments and coping with loss can be overwhelming. However, songwriting has smoothed the rough edges of my life and provided a space for introspection and healing. That acoustic piano in the Schwartz Center basement has become a trusted confidant, allowing me to pour out my fears and frustrations. Looking ahead, I plan to continue nurturing this musical peace in my life. Whether through composing a musical or performing original songs live, I know that my love for songwriting will endure. And whenever life's noise becomes too much, I can always return to that piano, rest my fingers on its keys, and find a moment of calm amidst the chaos.